Monthly Archives: June 2013

Dear Charlotte,

Sweet girl, you are finally here! You became our beautiful outside baby just 9 days ago, on June 18th, and we could not be happier.

You, my love, are everything we could have hoped for and so very much more. You are beautiful and so sweet and so very feisty. You have a ton of personality and have since your first minutes in this world.

On Tuesday, June 18, I had a doctor appointment where I was hoping they would do something to help me progress a little- I had been having contractions since the Saturday before and was sooo ready to not be pregnant any more and to finally hold you. Then, in a surprise twist, we discovered that you were breech. What we had thought was your head for the last weeks turned out to be your tiny little rear. You were folded in half with your head and feet at the top of my belly- not conducive with making an escape, little one! The only answer was for me to have a c-section and, because I was beginning to progress, we had to do it that day. It was such a whirlwind of overwhelming emotions and practical things that all needed to happen at once! Luckily for me, your sweet daddy was right there with me. I would have been a complete wreck without him but, there he was. Holding my hand and being so excited to meet you.

By 5:30 that evening, I was in the OR, your dad at my side and getting ready to see your sweet little face! You were born at 5:32 with your sweet little body folded in half and your cute feet by your head. Screaming at the top of your lungs and letting us all know that you hand arrived. I have never known such joy. There I was, laying on an operating table, weeping and unable to wipe my eyes- my little girl was here!

Our first days together were in the hospital and were full of family and friends loving us and getting a lot of care from the nurses on the maternity ward. I am so so grateful for those women, they made our first days together wonderful and helped us figure out everything we could as quickly as we could.

We came home with you on Friday and each day since then has been bliss. I was worried about being tired, about learning this new routine, about so many things. But, oh, sweet girl, they don’t matter at all. I love our time together at night- when it’s just you and me, snuggling while you eat. I love the time where we cuddle in bed with your daddy before we put you in your bassinet and try to get some sleep before the next time you need to eat. I love how you are awake a little more each day. How you perk up at the sound of my voice and snuggle into my chest when you’re full and sleepy.

Oh how we love you. There are no words. Like your daddy says, we NEED you. You are everything to us and we are so in love with you. To the moon and back, baby girl.

 

xoxo,

Mama

Link Love

Happy Friday, friends. While Tim and I look forward to weekend and hope that each day might be the day that this baby decides to be an outside baby, I’m also dreaming of all things summer. Rainier cherries, lemon ricotta muffins, peonies on my table… And, of course, things around the internet that I love right now:

Have a great weekend! xoxo

Dear Charlotte, (week 38)

Hi baby girl! 38 weeks! It’s so surreal to be at the end of this long journey growing you inside my body. In fact, it’s surreal enough that every time I try to type 38 weeks, I inevitably type 28. Not that I’d like to back track to there… I’m too excited for that!

We are, at 38 weeks, continuing to grow although I’m not sure how much more space my body has for you and I to both occupy it. Last week, you “dropped” which has put my belly even more front and center and given me a distinctive ‘great with child’ gait as I try to get things done around work at home. Everywhere I go, everyone wants to know allll about you. It’s incredibly sweet how many people are so excited for you to come!

Your nursery is officially done and just waiting for you to come enjoy it! I’m so excited about how everything turned out, I really love the space we’ve made for you and hope you will too! Your sweet dad got my car all spic and span ready for you to come so this weekend we can put your seat in.

At this point, we’re just waiting on you, little girl. Anxiously waiting to see your little face, whose nose you have, what color your hair is, what your sweet little hands look like. Anxious to hold you and kiss you. To rock you and love you. To find out who we are as a family with you. I can’t even wrap my head around the reality of you. You, our baby and us, your parents. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I wake up full of anxiety and wonder- how did God possibly love us enough to give us a you so easily? And is He maybe crazy? What if we aren’t enough? I hope we are. But, in those quiet and dark hours, there you are kicking me like a wild thing while Quincy tries to sleep on top of you. Those kicks are so comforting. Like you’re trying to communicate with me from in there, loving us and wondering just as much about us as we wonder about you.

Any day now, little one. We can’t wait to meet you.

 

xoxo,

Mama

PBS Love

I’m in love with every remix PBS does. Especially if it’s Mr. Rogers or Julia Childs. As such, today is a banner day.

 

 

I love the piece about discovering the truth about ourselves.